Weigh in day........

Hello all, hope ur enjoying a lovely sunny evening, i have a beautiful sunset going on behind me at the mo, hopefully red skies at night will be shepherds delight tomorrow!

Sooooo today was weigh in day for me, yet again i felt seriously nervous getting on them scales. I dont know whats gotten in to me and why im so nervous, i think its the fear of putting weight back on again this time, ive spent forever trying to lose this last half stone to get my elusive 3 stone award.
Anyway... i jump on the scales, complete with butterflies and after removing bracelets, rings, socks, and contemplating removing my bra lol (i didnt!!!) And to my shock horror i lost...

1.5lbs!! :-)

Ok so that may not be alot to some people but the fact that ive lost twice in a row is an accomplishment for me. And as id had no weigh in last week due to poorliness i thought i was in for a big old gain so that small amount was a great amount for me!

However there is a downside.....

Im now only a silly, stupid, measly, annoying half a pound away from my award. Damn it!!!!!!

However looking at this constructively i have a potential bad week coming up, lunches out, seeing friends, my dads birthday, a christening. All bad things but that half a pound i think is sticking in there to keep me from pigging out like i probably would have done if id got my award today, therefore im chosing to see the positive in this and make it a good week and get that award next week. I would have also got it exactly on my target, i wanted my award before my hubby comes home and il be seeing him come home next friday as well.

Well on to food today and a green day for me.

I was starving after group as i never have brekky before hand, so my first food of the day was a mugshot and packet of french fries and a big cuppa.

Then it was meal planning time while squirt napped away peacefully in her room.
While doing this i had a warbie sandwich thin toasted in the oven with a HEA of cheese, onion and tomato and some baked beans.

Shopping was fairly stressfree this week and for once i managed to get everything on my list, i also had a ton of vouchers and my staff discount card which meant i got £90 worth of shopping for £60 absolute bargain and my fridge, freezers and cupboards are full to the brim of yummy sw friendly foods for me.

Tea tonight im making the singapore noodles from the Tastes of Asia and some of my cannaloni spring rolls as well, im also treating myself to 4 syns of prawn crackers! Perfect fakeaway for a friday night. It was really tasty and im stuffed.

Ive got some cherries and raspberries defrosting for later and im going to top it with some fromage frais and have a hot choc with it too.

HEA - 350ml of skimmed milk
HEA - 45g of half fat cheese
HEB - ooopsy
HEB - ooopsy

SUPERFREE

Onions
Peppers
Mangetout
Beansprouts
Mushrooms
Baby sweetcorn
Water chestnuts
Cherries
Raspberries

FREE
Tom puree
Mugshot
Vermicelli noodles

SYNS
Warbies sandwich thins   5
French fries     4.5
Prawn crackers      4

TOTAL  14.5 syns

Just a quick one tonight! :-)

Evening all! Firstly thanks to everyone whos following on my fb page, ive been very priviledged to hit 100 likes which is amazing! Who would have thought when i started doing this that id have that kind of an audience...not me!!!

Today has been such a busy and head fluffy day full of meetings and work books that i just want to go to sleep, so its just a short one tonight as i dont really have much to ramble about to be fair! Ive not even really eaten alot due to these workshops.

Breakfast was a bagel and quark topped with cherry tomatoes and a cuppa ... think it was vanilla this time!

Time for work and after what seemed like a life time of trying to implant information in my extremely holey head it was lunch time! One small wholemeal pitta, feta and a pack of french fries, i couldnt even drag myself to go on shop floor to buy lettuce and more tomatoes!

Back out to work and a bit more training shoved in for extra measure and it was hometime.

After picking up squirt, bathing and bedding her i sat down to peruse fb whilst eating an absolutely vile ready meal of chicken and pasta. How u can screw that meal up is beyond me! Hot choc is on the way and so is my bed and its not even dark! How rock and roll am i!?!?

Please pray to the SW gods that i maintain or have a gain under 2lbs tomorrow!

Hopefully a more interesting blog for you tomorrow i do aplogise.

Xx

Strange people with wierd food ideas?!

Late one from me today! But hey its a wednesday and im actually blogging for a change!

So work day for me today but i have been really good, i didnt even take my purse to work with me, that way no spending extra money on stuff i didnt need and i actually ate the lunch i took in with me :-) check me out!!

Soooo i started this morning off with a bacon butty and a lemon and green tea, then it was a quick hop, skip and jump into the shower and get packed up to go drop squirt off at my folks for the day, a naughty cuppa (sshhhhhhh!!) And a quick natter later and i had to go, now i woke up in a proper narky and sarky mood today so thought i was in for a crappy day at work but ive had quite a few laughs with the customers, including one lady who bought vanilla coke and said her kids would think she was supermum today as vanilla coke taste "like heaven....like an angel had wee'd on your tongue!!!"
This had me chuckling for hours as who has ever had an angel pee on their tongue to determine thats what vanilla coke tastes like?!?!?!
Strange people out there, along with a gentleman who ate fish fingers dunked in custard............
Hmmmmmmm.........

Anyways on to a slightly more normal lunch of a packet of mixed leaves, feta cheese and tomatoes, a packet of french fries and a banana. I also managed to drink a litre of water as well :-)

Back out for another crazy couple of hours and another litre of water and it was off to my folks for tea.

I had a tesco light choices sweet chilli noodles and my veg unit was asparagus followed by an apple and a pix and mix tea bag (ive emptied a load of bags into my baby bag and its a lucky dip as to what i get!) I think it was spearmint and camomile!!

And im currently sitting in bed with my hot choc ;-) after catching up on Revolution and a very brief albeit heated phone call with hubby and his silly ship. Sometimes a military life bites, not just for me and our girly but for him too :-(

Has anybody else noticed that the galaxy choc bubbles hot choc crackles when you pour the water on?! Very odd, sounds like popping candy....mmmmmmm popping candy yum yum!!!

Anyways i digress

Have a lovely evening and il see you tomorrow for my final day of Fast Forward in an attempt at a maintain/low gain come friday after my easter scoffs

Night all xx

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Double whammy!

Heehee i apologise for the lack of bloggage yesterday evening, as i spent the evening catching up watching Made In Chelsea...i know i know dire but true! I kinda like the lifestyle in a weird way but not the ponsyness, its a bit of a giggle none the less and i will shamefully be watching more tonight as im starting from series one again... so i thought id get the blog in in a oner whilst squirt is nattering to ducks in the bath and trying to put rings on her head!!! Totally my child lol ;-)

Anyways yesterdays day started with a bagel, cherry tomatoes and quark topping...im determined to have a good day on FF and i drink enough herbal tea i think to keep Twinnings in business for the next twenty years!

A quick trip to Asda to get lil lady a new peppa pig cup and plate with her birthday money as the others are old and well lets face it dont have a piggy on them...

Lunch time rolls round and i have reduced fat cheese, whole bread and make it into a lovely toasty. I add cheese and onion french fries, delish!

My snack later on was a crumpet and jam, will miss this back on plan as its just too many syns to have on a snack
;-(

Tea was prawn stirfry with a massive pile of mangetout, it had some noodles  pepper, onion, baby sweetcorn and brocoli in and cooked in a bit of soy sauce.

Pud was a bit of a treat in cherries and raspberrys with fromage frais and a hot choc, i also sadly had the rest of the choc fingers :-( boohoo! However now it means i have a spare point to use if i want but to be fair im pretty full most of the time now once im actually doing this properly and not eating stuff i shouldnt!

Today was weetabix, half a grapefruit and milk (on the weetabix not the grapefruit)

I then spent three hours and nearly 600 calories walking around town with the sis in law and my neice and nephews. Ive downloaded the endo something tracker which works alongside my fitness pal which ive also been recording all my food in and will continue to back on plan so i dont over eat!
Not too shoddy for a mornings work!

Lunch was wholemeal bread and beans with a plum as my satsuma have gone mouldy :-( and some french fries, again copius amounts of herbal teas.

Then the lovely crumpet and jam nommers....

Tea tonight is a jacket potato with cucumber, tomatoes, salad leaves and a squirt of balsamic dressing oh and brussell sprouts!! then i get to enjoy a hot choc, jelly pot and strawberries later! According to my fitlog altho this sounds like loads of food its actually under 1200 cals a day! Infact yesterday it told me i hadnt consumed enough calories! Good job this plan is only recommended for short times and under supervision!
Altho sw is not about the calorie counting at all, i have a serious tendancy to overeat so its something i will be looking at in the future....

Right time to get my wrinkly prune of a child out the bath and on to more trashy telly lol night all xx

Fat Sunday :-(

Its that time of the day again, another blog post by yours truely and to be honest im kind of pouting at myself today. I had such a good start to the day and all went downhill from about 4:30pm.

I shall start at the beginning!

So another lovely morning albeit a little fresher than yesterday!
We had a lay in til 8am, i definitely think the blankets at the windows are makinh squirt sleep better.
We get up and i make her bacon and toast and i tuck into wholemeal toast, jam and a banana with a lemon and green tea and a big glass of squash (fast forward followed to the T again) and as its a lovely day we decide to go for a walk to the beach and go play on the swings and slides at the park. She has great fun running up the steps, playing peekaboo and whooshing down the slides until you always get that one kid whos determined to play on the baby park even though they are 13! And later on he was followed by his dad, so we decided to play "catch you" all the way along the common back towards home instead. Catch you is basically running away from her and her screeching and laughing until she catches up with me, we have to play this where ever we go and around the flat before bath time! It can also include hiding behind trees! Anyways it was great fun and we were out a good two hours playing around. Hopefully a good bit of body magic there! And i glugged a litre of water whilst out as well.

Lunch time rolled round and i had chicken and water cress sarnies, lemon and green tea and another big glass of squash and then it was nap time for lil one while i enjoyed a long chat with hubby on the phone. Hes back on board again after a night off and out to sea this week ahead so il not hear much from him so it was nice to get a 40 minute call. ♥

Eventually lil miss woke up and she got to chat to daddy too, she keeps saying "daddy ship" everytime she talks to him or we go to the beach bless her, cant wait to take her to watch him come in in less than two weeks now!
Well i had to make her dinner and i deserve a big fat slap for nabbing a couple of chips and a nugget :-( bad bad zoe!
However while she tucked into fruit and a couple of munch bunch for pud i had my jam and crumpet and cup of raspberry tea. This sort of subsided the munchies temporarily.

However after realising i needed to take my heap of crud car for a spin as i hadnt used it today (otherwise it wouldnt start tomo as theres something wrong with it but noone can work out what!) My thoughts turned to tea and to be perfectly honest i just didnt want the miniscule chicken roast that was on the menu for tea tonight. I wanted comfort food and i wanted chips and beans! So i decided thats just what i was going to have along with a warburtons sandwich thin pizza (cheese and tomato puree) and ok so its not the most horrendos food i could have eaten but it was off the FF plan. However it went down so well and took away everything i was craving!

I shall be back on track again tomorrow i dont know what has got into me the last couple of weeks, i had my fantastic loss and then i seem hell bent on putting it all back on!
I need to learn to break this self destruct circle that i seem to have going on....why cant i be one of these determined and steadfast people who never deviate from their goals?! It annoys the hell out of me! Its all good in the theory of it, i know where i want to be and how to get there...i just dont do it and i cant understand why?! I once said to my hubby that i self destruct my diet because if i was thin then id have nothing else to do or focus on! Maybe theres some truth in that... stupid thing is i know i would be alot happier and healthier slimmer!

Well tomorrow is another day and i will endeveour to try again as trying is all i can do.

Xx

Happy saturday :-)

Hello everyone check me out two blogs in a row...il need to sit down lol.

Hope you have all been out enjoying the sunshine, it was lovely just to be able to crack my windows open and put some fresh air around in the flat today. And it was even better to have the sun streaming in through the windows as well! Makes for a happy me!

Well my day started off with a lay in...i didnt think putting a cover over squirts curtains would make a difference, or whether it was the fact she didnt nap yesterday and went to bed later but it bought me an extra hour in bed, this is always a winner in my eyes!

Day 2 (day one of serious FF)

So this morning i had a cup of lemon and green tea, along with a glass of sugar free sparkling fruit water and a bacon butty! Happy days indeed, although i did miss having some sweet chilli sauce and mushrooms in it, but it was very tasty!

After a long hot shower we decide to go to B & Q to go look at stuff i cant afford but would love...namely kitchens and wallpaper! But settle on some new paint for squirts room, although i cant do anything til hubbys home as he WILL be helping me and i need a wardrobe the size of Russia to be moved. Plus we need to order some decals and a new duvet and quilt. My baby room will no longer be a baby room but a little girls room...sob sob! Oh and we buy a lovely pic frame to put photos of her daddy in for when he goes on deployment in a few weeks.
This has been a very large thought in my head the last few days and its makin me sad and depressed already, so we are coming up with different ways to make the 41 odd weeks go a little quicker! Good thing is i can be 100% diet orientated and work my way to a goal for when hes back again! Worked a treat last deployment, lost 3.5st, new hair, new clothes, a really bad fake tan and he hardly recognised me it was hysterical! ;-)
We are challenging each other to a weight loss/inch loss competition so should be fun lol.

Anyways on to lunch...i think this will be a fave back on the other plan, i had cherry tomatoes, mini pitta, lettuce leaves and feta crumbled on, with a cheeky spray of balsamic low cal spray (like frylight only dressing light!) Cheese and onion french fries and another lemon and green tea and more sparkly water. Cue the mass toilet visits!

An afternoon of playing chase, tea partys, chatting to my hubby and friends soon meant it was tea time and tonight was...

Macaroni pasta, tomato sauce with courgette, mushrooms, pepper, garlic and a sprinkle of herbs. I had also saved my veg portion to go with it as well so had some very tasty asparagus alongside too. More fizzy water and toilet visits! Oh and i nibbled on a crumpet and jam while it cooked.

A few more chats with a very tired hubby and my poor friend whos pretending water is wine and dropping pizzas on the floor and its time for my bed! Im taking with me my hot choc, 2 choc fingers, a choc mousse and strawberries!

I had a couple of slip ups today and had about 6 almonds and stupidly without thinking, whilst breaking up a bit of easter egg for squirt, a small piece of egg jumped into my mouth, i really need to stop mindlessly picking! Its an attrocious habit ive gotten into and i need to kick it pronto! So its on my list of to do's tomorrow!

Right night all xx

Serious apologies required!!!

Happy friday everyone, firstly im sooo sorry that ive not blogged once this week, its been one of those weeks! My lil squirt has been really poorly and had a terrible cough and cold, she then lovingly passed it on to me, ive had funny heads again and it was squirts birthday yesterday along with work....just made for a really really quick week and i just didnt have the time!
I didnt even get to weigh in this morning as we were both still poorly and needed a lay in to help to get rid of the last bit of icky bugs and start a fresh!
Ive had a crappy week food wise too, between a few sneaky easter eggs and glugging cough medicine and not drinking enough i think it would have been a horrific out come anyways!
Still it was very strange not going to my lovely little group this morning and it totally threw out my day and it doesnt feel like a friday...funny how one little blip in the old routine changes things completely!

Anyways i figured that as im 103% sure it was a gain (even though i wasnt brave enough to get on my home scales!) I decided to give fast forward another go this week in a bid to knock off what i gained and maybe offer me a maintain for friday if im really lucky and then i can work towards those last two pounds to get my long long long long awaited 3st award!

Sooooo on to the sort of food diary...its a bit of a new one for me being semi (all will become clear...) on plan for a friday as usually its treat day or takeaway night.  Serious fast forward will start officially tomorrow!
But i started my morning of with half a grapefruit, weetabix and milk, i kept back some of the milk for a cheeky coffee as i know im going to end up going through the caffine shakes again lol i really must cut down the amount of coffee i drink its awful!
We popped to my sis in laws to go pick up squirts birthday prezzys from her, being a good girl i had a herbal tea, a raspberry one i think...im living life on the wild side as ive emptied a load of teabags of all different flavours in to my baby bag! Now its a lucky dip as to what tea i get...

Now i was supposed to have whole meal bread and reduced fat cheese for lunch but as i hadnt got any in as id not been shoppin the sis decided to be very kind and made her first ever cheese on toast but was with white bread and normal cheese...a token effort on my part but it was seriously good!!! Hence only semi on plan.

Then came the arduous task of shopping, for once though my local tesco did have everything i wanted...miracles do happen once in a while! And once home and unpacked i enjoyed a crumpet and jam (serious perks of FF is some of the fab food they allow you to have!!)

I then made a lovely prawn stirfry and noodles for tea and used my veg unit with my tea to bulk it up a bit more and it was lovely! Im also drinking sparkling fizzy sugar free water today and have had two bottles, but i will try and drink more water from tomorrow as well.

Pudding will be a lovely bowl of raspberries and fromage frais, cashew nuts, hot choc and 2 choccy fingers.

Ive decided to swap my funsize choc bars for nuts, i think the choccy bars were the start of a serious choc addiction this week! Considering im usually a savoury girl favouring crisps over chocolate any day, i was seriously craving chocolate all the time!!!! It was a really bad downward spiral.
Fingers crossed though that the nuts will be better and with healthier benefits other than the fact they taste good! I still have that little choccy fix from the hot choc and choc fingers

Well i promise to blog all week from now and no more slacking..thanks for sticking by me and dont forget i have my fb page too Slimming World Style so come by and give me a kick up the backside!!! :-)

Xx

Happy Saturday :-)

Hello everyone!

So ive had a really nice day today, ive spent most of it mooching around shops with my friend Vicky and her little man. Found some bits and bobs for squirts birthday and had a lovely lunch out in Wetherspoons. The weathers not been too bad so we managed to walk into town and not worry about getting rained on which is always a winner!

So this morning was a lovely early wake up call of 6:45am yaaaaawn! I really didnt want to get out of bed so i grabbed squirt and her beloved peppa pig dvd and snuggled down under my duvet back in bed again for another hour or so... happy days!
But then the tummy rumbles kicked in in both our stomachs so breakfast was on order.

I soaked 35g of Jordans NAS muesli in rhubarb and strawberry yogurt and sliced up a finest grapefruit. Now yesterday i seriously begrudged having to pay £1.50 for two grapefruits as there was none of the red grapefruits...however i take it back as it was utterly gorgeous, not sour at all and seriously juicey, so i would purchase again with no qualms! I also had a big fat glass of nas squash alongside it as well.

After a lovely long hot shower it was time to get ready for town, after walking round the shops, nattering and putting the world to rights we decided it was lunchtime and headed to our local whetherspoons...happy days as there are sw friendly dishes there!
I settle for a diet pepsi and the sweet chilli noodles for one syn, and my goodness they are full of chilli!!! Hot hot hot!!! However a couple of chips may have found my mouth so im going to add on 2 syns for them as well.
Now i stopped at the market for some tomatoes for breakfast tomorrow and the silly bloke decided to pour them into a brown bag...and put in a carrier bag with my pineapple...take a guess at how many tomatoes survived the journey home?! About half the tomatoes turned into tomato soup in the bottom of the bag, its a good job they were only 50p!!!
Back home for a cuppa and its time to prep for dinner!

Tonight im very excited about tea as im making the first (of many!) recipes from my kindly loaned Taste of Asia book...Kung Pao chicken, all i have to say is its devine!!! I served it with some fine egg noodles and a pak choi.
I even did the really good thing of portioning it out (rather than eating the entire pan!) So i have three more delicious meals of this coming up as well...oh happy days!!!

I also enjoyed a slice of seeded sensation bread which is devine and its so lovely being able to have proper bread even if its synned at 6 syns per slice.

Im having a tesco healthy living chocolate mousse and some mango for my pudding a bit later.

HEA - 350ml skimmed milk
HEB - 35g Jordan Muesli

SUPERFREE
grapefruit
Peppers
Pak choi
Water chesnuts
Bamboo shoots
Baby sweetcorn
Button mushrooms
Spring onions
Mango

FREE
Chicken
Noodles
Strawberry and rhubarb yogurt

SYNS
Sweet chilli noodles  1
Kung pao sauce   2
Seeded sensation bread slice   6
Extra light flora  1
Healthy living mousse    4
Couple of sly chips   2

TOTAL  16

Slightly heavy on the syns today so im going to try and go minimal tomorrow, on a positive note tho i think my portions were really good today and i dont feel bloated or over full which is a great achievement for me today! Baby steps and all that! :-)

Weigh in day and fast forward results....

Hello!!!!

Well its friday and i had my weigh in this morning
I was there nice and early mainly because i wanted to get rid of the butterflies dancing around in my belly, i was beginning to feel slightly sick with nerves!
So i toddle up to the scales with some trepidation, close my eyes til i hear that beep, look down and.......

SIX AND A HALF POUNDS OFF!!!!!

my biggest EVER  loss!!!

Im so happy that i do a little jig! I then dont tell my consultant what ive lost so she can have a nice surprise a bit later in image therapy! :-D

Im so so so so happy with everything ive achieved this week:

- my ability to stick with the plan even when temptation was right under my nose.

- realisation of where i have been going wrong the last few months in my portion control, big may work for some but my body prefers little and often which im fine with.

- that i have fantastic support around me both in and out of group. (I sort of already knew this though!)

- i have a lot more determination than i give myself credit for, other times i would have given up when times got tough but not this time.

Its been a really good day and i have a battle plan now for the rest of my journey.

Im 40lbs down and 67lbs to go, and only 2lbs away from my elusive 3st shiney, which i want before my hubby comes home in 20 odd days, hopefully a slightly easier ask than before now i know my strategy for moving forward and downwards!

So after my happy start to the day despite missing a call yet again from my hubby, i settle down once at home to a cheese toasty, hot cross bun and my easter duck (getting all my easter stuff out the way so i have more time to work full steam on plan!) and my new sw magazine and a loan copy of the taste of asia book, for some cooking inspiration and to write my shopping list for later.

Once squirts up from her nap we head to tesco...big mistake, anyone would think that the world was ending, not that the shops were shut for just once measly day...how the hell must we have coped when all the shops were shut on a sunday...?!?! Oh thats right we used the other six days of the week to shop for stuff! I come out seriously stressed, peed off i cant get half the things i wanted, the shop looked like it had been attacked, there was hardly anything on produce, the queues were rediculous and to top it off when i came out some ass had run a trolley into the front bumper of my car! Grrrrrr!

Anyways once i finally got back to normality and the safety of my home i unpacked what little shopping i had and sat down for a coffee!

Tea tonight was warburtons sandwich thin pizzas, chips and beans. Already im noticing little changes as i would usually have had the wraps for 8 syns as they were bigger but actually the much smaller 5 and a half syns (i think) were just as filling, the small can of beans was just as good as a whole large can and 3 small potatoes for chips were much better sized than the 6 i would have used! See all positive changes!

I will be back on the usual sw plan tomorrow and will therefore be diary-ing it up properly along with my pic collage too!
But tonight i leave you with my fridge plaque and im off for a brew and to continue my mag and recipe book reading :-)

Night all ♥ xx

Oh so unbeliveably tired :-(

Hi everyone, today im writing to you absolutely shattered, squirt had night terrors last night, while we were stayin over the folks, so in a bid to not wake the entire household, including two members that were both on early turns, i decided that as she wouldnt go back in her cot without screaming, that she could come kip in with me. Oh what a mistake!
Finally at 2:45am she fell asleep, me however did not, she fidgets so much in her sleep i was being hit, elbowed, kicked and rolled on! Im not entirely sure i actually went back to sleep at all, then she was back up at 6am again when she heard people getting ready for work.
This made work for me incredibly long and i was so tired im pretty sure i was on another planet!

Anywho, for brekky i had my nommy proper bagel, quark and cherry tomatoes and a very naughty coffee...i really really needed it!
I obviously sensed i would need fuelling for the morning as it was super super busy, anyone would think the apocolypse was coming not just easter!

I was so happy when lunchtime finally rolled round, i had drunk a litre of water while on my checkout, but things were so busy still i couldnt get my salad leaves for my lunch otherwise i would have spent half an hour queueing! So it was just a mini pitta bread, cherry tomatoes, my french fries crisps and a packet of green beans (i ate them today!)
I was hoping that when i went back out that things would have eased off a bit but nooooo!
Finally the end of my shift drew near with another litre of water under my belt, hometime woooopiiieeee!!

After getting squirt to bed for hopefully a fuller night sleep than last night, i shoved on another cheeky ready meal under my allowed calories...tonights joyful meal was sweet chilli chicken and noodles, this time courtesy of tesco healthy living range. Better than the weight watchers one last night but not great! I honestly have no idea how people live off these things permanently, bring on the fresh cooked slimming world food again!

I have some strawberries, a hot choc and fun size choccy bar ready for my gorgeous, heavenly, amazing bed in the not so distant future

Tomorrow is weigh in day and to be perfectly honest im absolutely bricking it, if i have done all this and resisted so many things that have been wofted under my nose and i dont lose or only lose half a pound, i will be absolutely devestated, so please wish me good luck ♣

Night all xx

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